Le Fallen Angel

My Luv, tell me what do I have to do?
Tell me how to open your eyes
Tell me how to open your heart
Can’t you hear me knocking on the gate of your heart
Through seasons… Many passing moons…
Burn under the blazing sun
Drench under the heavy rain
Yet I’m still here waiting for you
Many would call me a fool
But still I did not waver
Why do you hide behind your pride?
Sacrificing your heart
You can’t hide it from me
‘Coz I see you as a whole
I’m not blind my Luv
If you’re scared, then take my hand
I’ll be there to shield you from harms
Guide you through doubtfulness
If in the end my soul is gone
Just to open your eyes
Then let it be a sacrifice of Love
Tell me my Luv, what do you really want?
What does your heart yearn for?
Don’t cage your heart…
Let it be free my Luv…
Tell me…

I’ve just started to unchain my wings
But it seems fate have another plan for me
For now I have to chain my wings again

I’ve got to stop painting that canvas I Love so much
And let those colors fade away
Reality is crystal clear when it’s black & white

How I wish I could cast a spell to freeze my heart
That warmth feeling is just too addictive
And my veins hurt now that you’re gone

Everything just seems to be back to blur
My soul feels so lost and cold
All those road signs just rusted away to dust

I’ve lost directions and I dunno where to put my foot
I wished a little light could guide me thru this shadow
But maybe I’m just too blind to see

Perhaps I’m just not built for this thing call Love
And the line is starting to run thin
If having a heart means to feel broken and incomplete
Then I wish to trade it away ‘coz I’ll be stronger without one

I wish all these is just one big nightmare
Someone is gonna wake me up
And whisper to me that everything is alright…

I have fallen too deep
That everything starts to fade
I can’t seem to remember
What is it that I’m trying to remember?
I have gone beyond emptiness
That everything starts to numb
Nothing feels real to touch anymore
What are those words I’m hearing?
Tired… Sleepy… I’m feeling so drained
I think I should just close my eyes
It’s not wrong, is it?
But why is there doubt inside?
What are those lights?
Is flashing with images
Your eyes… Your lips…
I see your breathing on the glass
Who are you?
Do I know you?
Do you know me?
Please stay… Don’t go…
Please let me see that smile again…
For some reason is comforting
I feel a spark of warmness
My mind feels serene…

If I were to love again

Would my heart be ready?
To accept unconditionally
For everything is beyond my capabilities

Doubt…. And disappointment
If God is merciful
Please let my heart be whole again
Uncertain wounds and scars

Has it really healed thru time?
Won’t you please proof me wrong?
I want to trust again
Having that so called faith

But I dare not take that step alone
Won’t you please?
Please take my hand and guide me
To let this wings to fly into the sky again

I’ve caught a glimpse of You in my dreams
You were always standing under the shadows
All I could see is you thin Lips
‘n the wind breezing through your hair…

You’ve visited my world many times
Who are you? Where are you?
Why are you in my dreams?
I do not know your reasons…

But your existence in my dreams
Has brought a soothing aura
I’m always in a bliss
Whenever you appeared…

I could watch your smile forever
‘n never be bored
I held my hands out to you
Won’t you come closer out onto the light?

I wonder if your out there
‘n seeing me in your dreams too?
You’re a stranger in my dreams
Yet strangely I feel that I knowyou

Perhaps one day our path will cross
Will I recognize you when you walked pass me?
If our fate are meant to intertwined
Then perhaps I will recognize you somehow…

Sun shining thru the gap of shadows
Blinding my shut eyes…
Entering my eternal dream
Waking me up from my slumber

Yawn… heart feeling content
What is this feeling?
Whatever it is…
I feel damn good

Nothing can take this smile away
Everything seems so clear
As clear as a cloudless sky
Peace n’ serene
No words can really describe the feeling

Is sumthing good gonna happen
I dun really care
I just feel damn good
My heart seems to be singing

Thumping to a beat of a drum
Jumping like a jumping beans
Joy.. joy.. joy… Spreading like a virus
Damn I feel good…

Is this what they call…
Being in the center of my peace
I wanna keep this feeling forever
Lock n’ bolted tightly

I won’t let it escape
I wanna remember it every second
Let it not be forgotten
Coz it feels good

Sun feels so great today
Hope it is the same everyday
Coz my heart is leaping with happiness
Oh, this feels good…

Wut Does It Feels Like
To be the one that receive Love
From their Love ones
Is it Sweet or is it bitter?

They said it’s a bit of both…
So would that feels like…
Tasting a Lemon with sprinkled sugar..
I wonder what it feels like…

Sumwhere in my heart felt that I was there once
Or was it sumthing similar…?
I wish I know how sweet or bitter those feelings are
I really do wonder…

Does it feel the same as the one that gives
I wish I could have a feel again of those feelings
Would I regret it in the end…
Or would I feel grateful of it.

Wut does it really feels like
To be really Love…
By the one U truly Love…
How I wish I remember how it felt…

Lost in my own feelings
Unable to justify reality n’ dream
Where am I to go?
What am I to do?

Sacrificing part of my soul to give happiness
N’ yet I still feel empty, why?
Have I forgotten….?
Forgotten how it feels to be…

It just felt like peace
The moment U touch my head
It all just seems right
N’ it felt that everything will be alrite

Was it all just a sweet dream?
I could just fall deeply into it
Coz I know when I opened my eyes
Everything will just fall apart again…

Please don’t wake me up
For once let me surrender into it
This feeling is like an ecstasy
Let me be in my dreams forever…

My soul tormented n’ cursed with kindness
Patience it hasn’t really been a good virtue
Depleted from my strength
I cursed thee kindness…

Always putting my anger into a cage
Giving my strength to not let it get the best of me
In the end I just get stepped around
Wut greatness does that hold…

But I also fear to let my anger out
Fear of being out of control
I dun want to feel regrets in the end
Should I bear it any longer…?

Kindness.. Patience.. Forgiveness.. Love..
It pains my heart to be taken for granted
I wanna rid it from my soul
But will I remember who I am…?

Here I stand before a mirror…
Punching it thru with my fist
N seeing my soul shattered into pieces
Not even the pain on my hand can be compared

Let it bleed away the sorrow in my soul
For tomorrow I wanna wake up with joy
Putting away all those memories in a treasure chest
Let it be lock far far away…

I’ve live 27 years n I’ve not seen once a relationship where both gave an equal amount of love. It’s always one of them with more care and attention. That is why when we love someone. All we can do is give the best effort for we love that person n always working of ways out together to make that relationship better. Love is never bout seeing or counting who love who more. When a person shows their effort to their love one they will feel it. N that is wut it means to be grateful. This is my way of love, how I see love, n how I love someone….

I hope this will help to enlighten anyone looking for an opinion or another point of view.